Our LifeHeal Clinics have gone really well so far, however I have been surprised to hear just how many of you suffer from women’s health issues. This is something I can really relate to, and I felt I’d like to share my experience.
As I write this I am reminded just how painful my journey has been, and I mean that in every sense of the word. This is probably the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write, so bear with me!
Being told I had endometriosis at 17 was a bit of a surprise to say the least, it was a fairly new, chronic illness back then, and there wasn’t much information available. All I knew was the pain was unbearable every month and I had no idea how to stop it.
I basically put my health in the hands of the ‘experts’ and the next decade was a runaway train of operation after operation, pain killers, hormones injections as well as lots of confusion, isolation and despair.
The NHS descibes endometriosis as a common condition where tissue that behaves like the lining of the womb (the endometrium) is found outside the womb. These pieces of tissue can be found in many different areas of the body, including:
•the ovaries and fallopian tubes
•outside the womb
•the lining of the inside of the abdomen
•the bowel or bladder
The condition is estimated to affect around 2 million women in the UK. Most of them are diagnosed between the ages of 25 and 40.
At 21, I flew to London to have an operation there. When I came around the surgeon told me my insides were such a mess that I would never have children and he wanted to do a hysterectomy. At 21 I hadn’t even thought about kids, but to be told you cant have something, well you know what happens then…
Life became difficult for my family and friends, it was hard for them to see me go through this and I’m sure I wasn’t the easiest to live with. My Mum and Dad were amazing, and looking back now I realise how this must’ve effected them to. I was taking far too many painkillers and it wasn’t until years later when I heard co-proximal was banned, did I realise this I was addicted to them.
To date, I have had thirty operations for the endometriosis, many of them were laser laparoscopies where they basically laser the disease away, almost like cutting grass. But for me, it kept growing back faster and the doctors were at a loss as to what to do with me. I always refused a hysterectomy, I have no idea why but somewhere deep inside something screamed, “No”.
I was 24 and had just returned from London from another operation, a couple of months after the operation I went to the doctor as I couldn’t stop being sick.
He told me I was pregnant!
I couldn’t understand, and told them it must’ve been a mistake. I can’t have children?
Well it wasn’t. It was a miracle. And my little baby boy was born in the November of 2000. I was shocked
Baby Boy, Sam
throughout the whole pregnancy and certainly not ready at all to be a Mum. He arrived on time and healthy, we both made it through a long labour and this year we are celebrating his 18th birthday! There has not been a day gone by over the last 18 years where I dont look at him and think what a blessing he is and how lucky I am. He may not have been planned, but boy was he wanted!
Despite being told that pregnancy can cure endometriosis, this wasn’t the case for me unfortunately. It came back pretty quickly and the operations continued for the next four years. I was told again that due to my tubes being so twisted, there was no way I could get pregnant. I was ok with being told this again, as I had young Sam.
I was booked in for an operation to remove the tubes and the night before I had terrible eye pain. I visited the eye pavilion and they said it was an ulcer, could you be pregnant? No, not me I said, I cant have kids. They did a pregnancy test and I was pregnant! It had happened again? So along came baby blessing number two, Ryan, another little miracle.
This was a turning point for me. I became a little angry at the amount of people I knew who were being told the same thing and were going ahead and having hysterectomies. Thats when I decided to take my health into my own hands. I am very grateful to all the doctors and nurses however handing myself over to them to control everything was a mistake in some ways.
My self healing journey started then and in some ways I am still on the path. I started a massive detox, which wasn’t pleasant and took over a year, this included removing, coffee, alcohol, tablets, dairy, gluten etc. I had intensive oxygen therapy amongst other things and then went for the last of my operations. The surgeon was gobsmacked, he told me he had no idea what I had done, but if he didnt have photographic evidence of all my operations he would not believe I’d ever had the disease. Another miracle.
The sad thing is, someone handed me a book on how to cure endometriosis naturally when I was 18. It sat on my shelf for 20 years – if only I had read it!
If I have learned anything, apart from how to cope with pain, depression, anxiety – it’s that if you truly believe, and want something so much, anything is possible. I believe that the power of positivity is vastly underrated. I was always positive, still am. It can change your life, and anyone can do it.